DO ASZ

FUNNY THING ABOUT PEOPLE THEY WILL DO AS THEY WANT
PEOPLE WILL DO WHAT THEY WISH

IT CAN UPSET YOU
IT CAN INCONVENIENCE YOU
IT CAN RESTRICT AND IMMEDIATELY AFFECT YOU

BUT IT DOES NOT CHANGE
THAT PEOPLE WILL DO AS THEY WISH

NAH MEAN.

IBISK TDUIIII (4 EYEZ)

I SEEK LESS
BUT STILL LIKE RESULTS
I LEARN MORE
SEE MORE
KNOW LESS
TAKE LESS
DO MORE
UNLEARN TO NOT KNOW

I KNOW MANY
I THINK OFTEN OF WHERE I WILL  BE.
I AM HERE.

I DONT LIKE THIS ENTRY [period]

and they are II

JESUS

JUDE

NESTA

ELLINGTON

ELLA

YOHA

-MMGFX

there was an D in'is name.

ANDY WAR CALL

ANDY WHORE ALL

ANDY WORE CALL.

ANDY WORE HALL

ANDY WORE ALL

ANDY WAR CALL.

ANDY WORE HULL

ANDY WOREHULL

ANDY WORESILL

WORE SILL

WAR SILL
 WARSIL
MORSEL

MORE SOLE

more soul

[teenage girl]
uuuugggh! why !?

yeah, I'm talking to you (reader)

YOU CAN STAY UP AS LATE AS YOU WANT, BUT/AND YOU STILL WON'T BE SHIT.


fuck what you heard nigga,

positivity is life.


and vision is sight.

THESE ARE IMMORTAL TRUTHS


you king bastard.

a SUFI in his raincoat

AND MAybe all my music will be free for life.

I will perform and make money from that.

seeing as this contract is luring over my head.

i konw she waiting somewhere with something to say and much to ask.

not like an audience participant though, more like a dusty aunt. not in appearance, but in presence and the memory- the thought of talking to her while she's in that greedy mindset. just having that lizard with the stick-bird for a wife and aunty dust. can't breathe. it hurts when i swallow because its dry as hands in the winter,

I ain't tryna see her no more, on this level. but im sure I will because of existence speaking universe theory and just because I am and I need to. Im getting close to having to address all my quick decisions and old ways of communicating and personal-problem solving. I WISH I WAS DEAD to it. Not dead to this life- but dead how I am to thinking innocently about certain things, like what I used to think about in the basement when WCW came on saturday evenings, right before ma' cooked dinner, and pops came home. and before i knew my plans and drafts were right all along.
I WAS ALWAYS RIGHT WITH MY CREATIONS. so far ahead its bonkers. I LOVE IT. I KNOW IT. IM ADDRESSING IT.

I LOVE YOU...I LOVE ME... I meant me the first time.


[looks around ]

man this apartment is hella fly.


fuck typos nigga, you can still read.

nigga WE IN THIS LIKE DUST nigga

[CENSORFFACE]
SIN SORE FAYSSS

SIN.
SORE.
FACE.

cen.
taur.
face.

centor
face

centore
face

sintour.
"face"

how come niggas dont hear me. when i tell them exactly whats going on. Its like when shit is not shining like the sun, niggas stay not hearing. and be like o wow thats really fucking great that the cloud has cumulus, and pizza is great.










the fuck you put nigga in the title like its quotation marks for though. 

NIGGA THIS AIN'T THE INTERNET

EAT A TISSUE NIGGA

eat tissue nigga.

EATING BIG ASS CLOVES OF GARLIC AND SHTI

EAT A TISSUE NIGGA.

NIGGA IM A ARTIST

im not puttin' up with yo square ass bullshit. nigggas love me. niggas love me, for me, niggas kNow, so fuck what else ever there may be




you fuckin' niggahead
fuckin niggaheaded'nigga
niggaAssBiet'ch

What does one make of it

I am not going to sleep on time tonight as punishment.

(and that is actually pleasure.)

What am I to do. That voice is becoming more accurate. You know the one that told me to meditate deeply, have a fucking seat before  I go and book this ticket to Portugal. Damn nigga.


I mean fa real, and the big thing is it isn't your money. So now you have to wake up early and go fight for your money or a new ticket in a different direction. Perhaps Italy or perhaps BE. Either way this is womping major.

Christmas will not be on a beach. If i hear anymore of this youtube and pop shit I'm gonna be so good at tuning out shit, that I'm gonna be really good at tuning out shit.

Concepts are super simple. The method of making the album is super complex mainly because I want a certain outcome,even though the best songs have come out when I haven't necessarily been looking for them, just kinda shitting around. However you need to re-record them and make them sound right.

What about ------ ? I haven't talked to anyone in days. Which is usually how things go. I have this idea that when you are grown you don't consult friends or family on your decisions. This is mostly how I feel because I feel one way about something initially and another way hours, or days later and I dont need folks judging off of that instead of my intent, because I take those I love and care a bouts words to heart the most. No need to involve emotions with confusions, thats a damn near 7-day soup...thick though like baby food ..[pea baby puree ]

WHUDA FUCK AREYOU DOOING?

not gonna lie im kinda going loopy

waiting for a response to have a place to lay muh head tonight.

smoking hella cigarettes

drinking mad coffee

pissing mad much

listening to TI$a instrumental tape

sweating under my arms with cold ass: fingersCOMMAnoseANDtoes

balls sweating -body smelling like 5 days ago

want some pantywine

that aint nothing different

EXCUSE YOU NIGGA!

you're excused.

rest assured

been reasssearchiing murderers all day



i'm concerned about my dreams tonight.


its only 6pm

MOMENT OF REALIZATION

SO..

I went to _____ agency last week. They were considerably rude, more than agencies usually are. However upon leaving in a rage at the disrespect- not the rejection (thats whatever). I stormed the streets walking in front of every car, and cursing on the streets and hitting light posts and signs.

And then after I took a walk in my neighborhood here in Milan. It hit me. I do not need an agency, but I really do want one, for better paid work. On my own I have gotten considerable work and have quite the resume of pictures. I know I have multiple talents and I am great at them all- (everything can always improve)... but In music, Im genius. In Modeling- I can fit anything and make it look well while still looking great myself on camera. In acting- I am a special kind of actor and very devoted to the point of perfection.

I have been given and developed an amazing taste in Fashion, Music, Art, etc. I know what would be great together and alone.

I SIMPLY REALIZED THAT I DONT NEED AN AGENCY. I ALONE AM WORKING HARDER THAN THESE AGENCIES BECAUSE I KNOW WHERE I FIT AND WHAT I CAN DO AND HAVE DONE MORE THAN THEY DO.

CONFIDENCE IS KEY.

Post Title

Been acting strange lately. Thinking too much, or changing. Not doing what I feel to do socially, letting myself get in the way.







Im wavy, WTF!

ITS GONNA BE A TURN-ON

ITS MORE PEACH, AND APPEALING TO APPEASE PEOPLE, BUT IN THE END I END UP WITH NO FACE AND VOICE. IN A WORLD SO LOUD YOU HAVE TO KNOW WHEN TO SPEAK AND WHEN TO LISTEN. BUT YOU CANNOT LEARN EITHER IF YOU DO NEITHER.

MAKE MISTAKES, LEARN BY DOING. FOLLOW YOUR CURIOSITY AND INSTINCTS. 

FOLLOW SELF AT ALL COSTS. 

EASIER TYPED THAN SAID, AND EASIER SAID THAN DONE.

honesty

|M|

Now, Im modeling because I see what I can do in it, and it interests me, and getting into fashion world is a great thing that can be done, through it. Im just following the wave of life and its pacing. im letting it take me.

Also things are lining up and working out by the people I have met, and the energy and words I have and am putting out.

I know I can make it, but make what ... first?
Everything- Do everything.



But most of all be still ,listen and do you.


BE STILL

AND LISTEN.

YOU.


|M|

NOW,

ITS NOT THAT I DO NOT WANT to act, but it is something I do on and off, it always has been that way since I first rode it to the top,personally.

I realized that after talking to some elders (50-60+)...[unfinished thought]


Look, I want what I want, does every decision have to be related to my career. If my career is  my life shouldn't it be treated s such, knowing that It develops naturally with what you put in. And until you are willing to put in more it will go like this.

I think this is frustrating because I want recognition and Im good, easily great and beyond once I commit. But I will not commit, for it "not being what I want" at that moment in life.
will i pay?am i stubborn? will this bite me in the ass? ..will it hurt?

Also If you don't love it always, is that your passion?




|M|

Entitled to

my room has the pungent odor of weed smoked,

and weed lost.

My classmate smelled cigarettes,weed,and my new scent.

I think she wants to smell though.

i think she wants to smell though

i thinkshe wants a smellthough

i think she wants a smelltho

ithiic shewats a smeldo

Ithishi Tatsu Smedo.

DeiBuss

This coming period of 2012 is full of challenges, Gemini, but also one of great abundance if you are courageous enough to take bold steps.