September 28,2010

know what to do.

sittin' here playing my guitar
sittin' here wish it were a sitar
I see how they look
and I sure look back
but now days
its courage i lack

I don't know what to do.

Went to school before
didn't learn me shit
mom taught me more
when giving me licks.
I'm a hard-headed kid
Learnin' from life itself
and my elders have good lessons
but now days I want more wealth.
Where'd the discipline go;
patience and peace
the latter i still have
but its lazy in the least
worlds hero at the most
never knew a median
always told a joke.

i know what to do.

be honest be true
easier said then proved
appreciated by old souls and mothers
or the wives of our brothers
o how my conscience hovers.
lust just wants me undercovers
I may regret my youth
but not my actions
get old,still stubborn
living in full satisfaction.

and as I know who...

but still so much to grow
didn't listen then
don't listen now
don't give a fuck
Cuz I dont know how.

The Fox

NOW PLAYING/BEEN PLAYING

MOS DUB - IS A DECENT MASH ...DEFINITELY ENJOYABLE

BARRINGTON LEVY- HIS MUSIC ON A PLAYLIST..OOWHOOOOOAA!

DJ SCREW - ALL WORK NO PLAY (FAV.SO FAR: HOW DO YOU WANT IT(PAC) & I DONT LIKE DREAMING(DPG) )

WANTS RIGHT NOW

^TO GO SHOPPING^


^BE IN MY OWN PLACE^


^BOMB ASS DANK & RELLOS/PHILLIE'S^


^PUSSY^

in a bad mood muthafuckas!

Today, was a bad day. I decided that early on. Im not in the best mood. Tomorrow I shall awake and it will be different. Slept in. I am done smoking cigarettes. I need to do my community service...FUCK!!

AND THEN IT WILL ALL BE EASIER AFTER THAT.

A JOB-YES! THAT'D BE NICE...OR AT LEAST MY CHECKS FROM EXTRA WORK. SO THAT I MAY PURCHASE MY HEADSHOTS!

THEN GO TO R.BROWN, GET MY REEL! (TWO FILMS I HAVE). I KNOW. FOR SURE.

Damn, I remember when I first started this blog.
Its time for me to leave the house, i understand that. I also understand hourly entry jobs with my background don't pay enough for apartments even if I split my pay with a friend.

My dad sets me up for failure then, chews me up for making a mistake, or in his eyes failing. The man is insane on a mission to make me the same way. I promise.

But I am going to make it. I will make it, I AM MAKING IT AS WE SPEAK!

TO DO:
MODELING PICTURES
HEADSHOT
COMMUNITY SERVICE
REGINA BROWN AGENCY ET/OR CHARLIE'S talent agency...
(^there is no reason I am very talented.)

as much as I enjoy the city of Detroit, I am much past ready to leave.

I dropped a single last week off of "Complete"
http://www.soundcloud.com/marsgmars

I don't feel like making the link...so just copy and paste.

I need my car. i need my place. i need dough!!!!!!

-GOODBYE.MARCUS.

I KNOW WHAT IT IS IM STILL HERE. AND ITS BEEN SO LONG.

I GET IT.
IM LEAVING.
I GET IT.

WHY DID I EVER LET FOLKS GET ON THE WAGON. WHY DID I SLOW DOWN... EH ITS COOL. ITS GOOD


IM IN CONTROL.

LOVE PEACE AND UNITY(RICK JAMES VOICE)

GOEVERNMENT HOUSING

FUUUUUCK !

I FEEL LIKE LEAVING IN MANY WAYS. THE PARENTS ARE ALL ON THE ASS, IF YOU WOULD PUT AS MUCH TIME AS YOU DO DRIVING ME TO GET A JOB, INTO PUSHING ME INTO MY CAREER IT WOULD BE FABULOUS.

BUT I UNDERSTAND YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT THE INDUSTRY OF ENTERTAINMENT. YOU TREAT IT LIKE WORK AS FAR AS HUSTLING BUT YOU CAN ALSO BE ON A SET FOR HOURS OR AT HOME FOR HOURS, ITS NOT CONSISTENT AND THAT IS WHY I HAVE MY FINGERS IN BOTH ASPECTS. ACTING/COMEDY AND MUSIC.

BUT YOU DONT WANT TO HEAR, AND I DONT WANT YOU TO HEAR MY SHIT BECAUSE YOU WILL ONLY SEE THE CURSING NOT THE MUSIC ITSELF. SO PERHAPS I SHOULD MAKE A CURSELESS SONG JUST FOR YOU ALL. I THINK I WILL!

I REFUSE TO BE DEPRESSED WORKING WHERE I WISH NOT TO, FOR ANOTHER WINTER.

THEREFORE I MUST PUSH THE FUCK ON.

WHY DONT I JUST X X X ALREADY!

Marcus isnt poetic as much as he is honest

the only thing sweeter i could have said was love.

i promise.

samkissessung

i loved you first underneath the sheets.

it isn't sex.

it isn't lust.

it ain't sin.

dammit! if this is sin, then let us both burn!

and if we burn together

the pain wont matter.

'cause I ain't never met cupid

but I swear we're in love honey.

finger lickin'

Could things really be going much better?

yes.

Am I complaining?

yes.

Is my stomach in knots at the moment?

yes.

Am I complaining?

not everyday but I pick my times.

put my 45 on paper, and watch me close my ears.

And in all my foolishness I should have learned by now, at least to listen.
The Law is strong...
pssh,keeps me quiet.
(that's for sure)
Whether I'm in a cop car
or eating pop carn
i ain't saying shit.

Those both involve manners
but the former is lead by fear.
o what a record I have.
The only one I don't want to hear.

Pushing up daises from a field so fertile-MotherLand Speeches

To be talked to like a child would suggest, that you either are a child, or you behave as one. Or that the person speaking to the child-like party feels for some reason they are more mature than you.

Following a dream is great until no factors are seen.

Trying hard is useless is nothing comes about?

Not becoming caught in the time war takes energy, shit i mean it takes me. but its the pay-off! for me to totally do as i please and desire I would have to take myself seriously.
This is a battle for me because the environment I'm living in. The people not the actual environment. The motivation of few drives, and motivates me to push through the normality to simply work work work someplace you don't like. I know it takes money to live but to sacrifice little money for an end that brings countless money. seems quite motherfucking sensible.

The only question I ask myself is; hey man are you pushing hard enough. are you doing enough. Can that which is weak seem strong because of the push?

YES.

so the question is what am i doing to polish, to regularly push harder.

I love you Marcus.
I love your life.
I love your purpose.
You are me.
and I, YOU!

are they fed up or giving up?no matter what they are doing what are you doing and how are you remaining full of faith?

September 6,2010

How about that community service, eh?