this damn dream done changed my life.

this is not a dream anymore, Marcus this is damn real.

this is your career. the drop or fly is in your hands.

before it wasn't it was in others hands.

this provides you will the utmost respect and responsibility for yourself.

you need this to grow up and become responsible more than anything,love.

you will have to take care of your body,your connections,your well-being(mentally,stability-wise).

before you become a man elsewhere,you must become one at home.

Marcus has grown-up, so you motherfuckers had better watch out.

Think ahead plan ahead.Take your time and plan ahead to defeat and beat others.grab life and live it.experience it. do not let things come to you any longer. call,communicate,grow and share.

You think too much and you will be frozen.

hello.

sleeping early waking up earlier [10-29]

a dream about.

ordering white castles.

two double, burgers, and fry. were left

i had eaten part of it, but figured for some reason id save the rest.

upon pulling them out they were bigger than usual

meat hanging out from the bun. double the size of their actual burgers with bread about the same size..maybe a smidgen bigger.

i left to go prepare for the night(brush teeth,clean face, etc)

then upon laying in bed i noticed that i still had the bag, and i figured ok why not! i might as well you cant save white castle 'til the next day!

i took out the burger. then i was at a park with walt.nardo was on his way their.nardo arrived i said wassup-then i finished eating one burger and my fries were on the burgers.[as usual]

then we were at an asian restaurant. someone ordered fish.walter talked/asked if i was with someone i said "no, because that locks you down"

he laughed. we all laughed

there was an asian man with us now sitting at the table with me

[we are at two separate tables]

after seeing walt from the reflection of the tinted glass in front of me. i turn around.

now either before or after the restaurant

we are all running. down a hill. i carrying my burger then half way down toss it! missing it because it tastes so good. but running down the hill anyway and then we were at the asian restaurant having a good time.

i have to let something go to move on. otherwise it will weigh me down.make a decision already,Love. ;D

we were preparing to work out and it was early-dark morning. nardo stretching walt ready and the asian guy there. so to be eating the white castle was not smart on the way down walt asked me if i was alright. because he knew i had been eating the white castle.

we all went down together and laughed at the restaurant.

face the grace

artificial intelligence
is a being
a way of life for them
with no meaning

grinning
wait for the hog
to leave home
before you
bake macon

have manners for the dyslexic

face the grace.

he figures he's on a roll so why stop

i guess i shouldnt tell so much
and you shouldnt smell so much.

/\ IT DIDNT MEAN anything to a soul but me

looking for a way to leave my mark. its a subtle plan. i feel like basquiat...got the look on my head.
ilearned yesterday just how ughff.i can dress.
sloppy some.

i want fitting tops and revealing bottoms.
im going to be one fine ass bum.
my outfit is sick.
i learned layers. that which is so difficult for me to do.-this winter storm

grey thermal -medium
rotten brownpeach zip up sweater -layer2
green military jacket
blue/green knit scarf- so warm /\so fluff
jeans with a bow leg cut..wrinkles at pockets
skechers boots-but you know you could never find me wearing fucking skechers-RATHER:red wings,chukkas,or low top boot...maybe

damn i looked good.
i really underdress myself.
time to get some fucking money bitches.
ballin on all you muthafukkas!
seriously
i should model clothes
seriously i model clothes

get over yourself reader,and let me have my penis back.
my cock strong,my will weak
i will use my dick to speak
on occajun!

-wh-at.

Who is she?

be timeless,or be gone.

cuz foreva is a mighty long time!

PUSH ON BABY.

Now you're gonna have to go through hell
worse than any nightmare you ever dreamed
but in the end
i know you'll be the one standing
you know what you gotta do
DO IT...

DO IT!

-DUKE of rocky IV

i fucking love mothertalks blog

times are always better now.

we talk.

i work.

we talk.

but our son;

he

is

love.

via mothertalk

tearing up right now

i promise im all love,but not all innocenct.

he doesnt truly trust a soul

and when i feel like shit instead of calling

rochelle
erica
lauren
janee
erika
or
robert

i turn up the screw music...go to bed.

goodnight world thank you for your love,your music your love your music,your love,your music,my love,my musuc,my love,my music.
believing in myself always all day..not!

muah!

ok, when the voice says not to.
but the heart says todo.
and you think of the future saying what if you dont.
but the factor of timing comes into play.
but really you;re just lonely.
confusion happens.
because really i dont need a woman.
but i want her touch,warmth,comfort,and bosom.

but i want my career,and success' security more.
so i p.roduce u.ntil s.omething h.appens

why do i pass up the mic or give it to unsteady hands?
no mas.
no mas.
no.

I want wants when its from the heart

i had a dream about us.
we drove in a car
felt like mine
drove like yours
then again i remember only looking up.
you crawled into my lap.
it had to be autumn
the windows were up.
you weren't hesitant to get in my lap.
and for that i was happy.
I was holding you.
you were holding me,hold you
when i did hesitate
you followed through
putting my hands around your belly
fuzz on the left side.
love on the right
I finally opened my eyes.
to look up at you.
ha!
we were in a carwash
you wanted somewhere without people.
I don't know if you are a creative romantic
or not into PDA
but i doubt that because,as we drove(sat)
you sung a song
of joy that can only come from
love.
♥

Le Secret

So perhaps the secret IS getting up early everyday with good music. and something to do.I really have to MAKE my day!! be happy to bring happy or optimism to another!!!

ladies,ladies thank you

So I figures...i don't have anyone to wake up next to right now. so im going to serenade myself, with new jack swing music!!!
today:

SWV - Its About Time.


ooo ladies thank you for breakfast.
off to do community service.
.peace and have a bomb ass day !!

yeeee-uh

im bout to get a pair of deez, replica and then my own twist on em

.peace

no wonder people hate websites
because all you internet freaks ask to many questions
all you wanna be christians
ask for too many blessings

oh your God is all that
providing you with it all
my money stacks high
i've yet to reach the ball
i've yet to hit the mall
i've yet to give my money
for that which may fall

and all you can muster up
is see you next fall

im crazy in my brain
but it cant be me
cuz crazy's at home with company
im crazy in the good
crazy in the bad
everybody killin' me
so i get more sad.
im gone.

my minds in another place
chef asked what to eat
i reply get another plate
my stomach is like steel
with a tape worm in it
...

fissure price [tobefinished]

O Marcus you did it again
dropped bricks on her chest
cuz you moved faster
than your hearts legs
i will take

all the blame
but prides says there's nothing wrong
i dont want to have
these thoughts going on

she said

but its the least you deserve
after fooling me
thought you were the one for now
but you want her and me
and i want you and me
I and you
but clearly not enough
so fuck you dude

i tell her
its not that easy
you explained it well
dont give a middle finger
i dont take those too well
i know you spent time
and i should have said
what i was gone do
before i put thoughts in ya head

so it was us then me
us then he(female voice)
something has
gotta bring justice to this broken unity
i cant
go ah-round
doing this
eating the heart
and not cleaning my face
preparing for pussy
and not saying my grace
like lady killer is my name
is my name
is my name
*tick tick tick*

\

didnt wanna wake up
not gonna lie.
...

POWER

IF YOU AINT F'N THE SYSTEM THEN WHY YOU LIVIN !

-kanye west

Anti Matter

THESE LYRICS REALLY JUST SPOKE TO ME. MY FIRST TIME READING THEM.HEARD THE SONG DOZENS OF TIMES.

You so anti don't nothin' matter x 8
What's this on your iPod? tell me what you listenin' to
Why you jumpin' bout his money? I ain't hear him mention you
I know this aggravates you and it upsets you
But I can change you I know how you hear me is this better?
Yeah yeah you like this yeah this your language
Life is short and black and white just like little penguins
Why you in social studies screamin' anarchy?
Why you got the killjoy, shootin up the party?
Where you get that money from? Wait, where you runnin' to?
Why I'm hearing sirens? Where them blue lights comin' to?
Dawg you're a genius you could blueprint and plan this
Instead of playin' videogames, why don't you take advantage?

You so anti don't nothin' matter
What? Ya punk bitch! x 8

What's that on your iPod? tell me what you listenin' to
Why you jumpin' bout his bitches? I ain't hear him mention you
I know this aggravates you and it upsets you
I'ma can change you I know how you hear me is this better?
I don't understand you, you're the school's biggest cut-up
Ridin' in your mama car, boomin' like a muthafucka
Why you always spittin' for? What'd you get her digits for?
Don't you know with no money that girl is not gon' give you none?
Life doesn't diss you, why you got your fist out?
Or you just gon' run in there and five finger discount?
Talkin' bout where the weed at, wait what you puffin' for?
I thought you were an expert, now listen to the officer

You so anti don't nothin' matter
What? Ya punk bitch! x 8

I know you're alive there's a lantern lit inside
It's not just (better by) it won't blow up in your face if you try
I know you try hard but you gotta try harder
Now you got your light you can find your way
You're a multi-tasker you're doing things faster
Or you gonna let this God given gift decay?

You so anti don't nothin' matter
What? Ya punk bitch! x 8

Muthafucka is you A.D.H.D.? A.D.H.D.? A.D.H.D.?
You jump around like you A.D.H.D. A.D.H.D. A.D.H.D.
You can't sit still like you A.D.H.D. A.D.H.D. A.D.H.D.
You fuck around like you A.D.H.D. A.D.H.D. A.D.H.D

waking up today...

I swear
as Im getting older
my dick is getting longer.